Saturday, January 20, 2007
went for sso+song fei's concert ystd. went with xianyang and sat with junhong, harry and some payco zhonghu guy called shawn. met qinglun and jason on my way to esplanade.
the concert was okay, so-so. but i seriously dun quite like guo wenjing's composition. it's really rojak lorh, he uses almost every single technique of erhu in the entire song la! really nong qiao cheng zhuo. nonetheless, song fei's playing is still admirable.
during intermission, harry, junhong and shawn went to Q for song fei's autograph while i was still inside the concert hall, trying to psycho xianyang go with me. but he just refused to risk bumping into someone. which is wise, cos he'll prolly have stuffs to complain about after that. so i went down alone to look for harry, but i passed my booklet to junru and asked him help me get it signed. saw yuanyang Q-ing behind. OMG la! he looked soooo different, and he's much much much taller than i last saw him...
second half of the concert was quite nice. i tink The Miraculous Mandarin is damn nice. the conductor intro-ed it in a very interesting way. =]
after concert decided to go for dinner(supper?) with xianyang. so we walked to his aunty's workplace to collect his car and on the way, critising erhu concerto. anyways, he wanted to send me home and have dinner near my place, but SORRY XIANYANG, i know i very blur. duno which way to drive back from esplanade, so in the end, made a wrong turn and went all the way to dover. =X i seriously felt sooo guitly la! den when we got to kovan, he decided to go over to heartland mall to find food. but, 11+ liao, everywhere closed..and he was damn pissed that they even locked the toilets. lols, he kept complaining about how unfriendly kovan is, and i really feel so bad. he drove me all the way to kovan and had to walk around searching for food, and he was very tired from the run. anyways, somehow ended up at the punggol nasi lemak there and he ordered hokkien mee. promised to give him a treat, so, yeah. anyways, he drove me home la.
called xueqi after i got home. she taught me a lot in that conv. and really set me thinking. maybe i should really change my whole attitude towards music and start reflecting of what kind of music i want to present to others, and think about how to achieve it. perhaps im starting to go off-track. music is starting to give me a lot of stress, and i know i shouldn't be feeling this if i really love music. i shouldn't be thinking too much about whether to go pro or not. there's still time. im not even halfway thr my lifespan... and really, like what xueqi said, i shouldn't be envying or feeling jealous about those people at NAFA. if i have the determination, i can succeed.
after that, called harry and chatted till 3.30. he made me realised that people actually thinks more highly of me than i do of myself. and i really hope that whatever he said is true and not just trying to make me feel better.
i will continue to work hard and outshine the rest. im searching for my motivation and determination. "if you don't have expectations of yourself, how do you expect others to have high expectations from you."(direct translation qouted from xueqi qouted from samuel).
rach @ 1:34 PM
