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Friday, January 23, 2009

i told myself, i am strong, i will be strong and i must be strong. but when the time came, i cried like never before...thankyou my love, for being there whenever i need you. for trusting me, for loving me like nobody has ever, for accompanying me through sorrow and happiness, for bringing so much laughter to my life. for teaching me how to love, and letting me understand that nothing gold can stay. i hope you'll rmb me. i hope you can find that angel who will guide you to heaven. i hope you'll understand that i had to do this, becos i love you, i dun wana see u suffering in silence. it's been 3hrs and 30mins and i haven stopped crying since. i love you so so much. bye my love. goodbye forever.

rach @ 6:03 PM

Monday, January 19, 2009

Rachel Yang has got pretty hair! haha. went with xianhui to cut hair today at kovan. at some place called hair concept studio. not bad. but abit de very ex. but my stylist was very friendly! anyways, xh trimmed her hair and i cut my hair back to the slant style. coloured it brown and highlighted red. was initially abit afraid to try a new stylist but since it looks alright so we went in. end result not bad la, quite happy. i must THANK XIANHUI for being there the whole time, waiting for me. she was damn hungry la. sorry... but alright la, cos i treat her to TWO CHA YE DANs! haha.

(PS: please ignore my double chin.)

rach @ 11:37 PM

Thursday, January 15, 2009

im seriously really feeling very lazy, but i need to keep this blog alive...

yea, had this gig ystd at the pine court with xueqi, joyce and yunyi, 4 simple songs (which i dint perform very well, sadly). its some recommendation by xq's tailor, yea. we first had some practice session at esplanade rooftop. which was damn stupid cos we dint put a bowl in front of us. we were basically just providing free music for those tourist taking photos of the durian husk. owells. then we went to meritus mandarin for the gig. OH, did i mention, i was walking around in heels that are prolly more than 2 inches high. i used up 5 plasters man. GOD. then 2 guys from moephosis(the place where xq made her 881 clothes), freddy and galvin were there at the lobby waiting for us. and, really, ive never NEVER NEVER ever seen such gentlemen before. they were very patient waiting for us. and offered to bring us to the toilet, waited for us outside(we took ages), offered to help us carry our barang barangs, hold the lift doors for us, always 'ladies first' and what's more; offered to send us to xq's place. haha, ive never NEVER ever done a gig having such nice gentlemen as organisers(ok, strictly, they werent the organisers but they are kind of). the 2 guys are really very friendly and really REALLY NICE. we had some casual chat on the ride to xq's. complete from yunyi being VERY CURIOUS abt galvin to xq being very FISHY *sniffsniff*(inside joke). anyways, thnx galvin and xueqi for this chance. =]

today went swimming with xh! but other than that, some really sad thing is, my grandma fell down and went to took an xray at some polyclinic(which took us nearly 3 hrs) and confirmed that she had a fracture. no wonder she kept screaming in pain. now hospitalised at ttsh. SIGH.

sometimes i wish that time will nvr move. we will all be the same age as of 10 yrs ago, and remain like that. as you grow older, people around you start to leave you. you will realise the cruelity of life. but you have to face it, cos youre 'old enough' alrdy. i suddenly realised how my dad have aged. i still rmb plucking white hair out for him every advertisement break when we were watching dramas together. but now, we spend much lesser time tgt. its been ages since we sat down and watch one nice show tgt. and the white hair on his head is now much more than the black ones. it's a scary thing to realise that the one who brought you to this world is old alrdy. a senior citizen alrdy.

my dog doesnt have long to live too. he was diagnosed with cancer a couple of months back. and it's really saddening to see him change from a very lively and noisy little thing to such a slow and blur dog who doesnt even react to his favourite toy. and i realised that ive been a really bad owner, going out whenever i have the chance to. forgetting the fact that i have lots of friends and family around me; but for my dog, im the only one he have.

rach @ 10:55 PM

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

it's been a really hectic year in 2008. ive been through lots of things and lots of different emotions. fostered new friendships that i know will last. too much to say, no idea where to begin... i just wanna say thankyou to my friends now. soooo many to thank. (in no order of preference)

CLIQUE:
thankyou for all the great times! you guys made my 2 years of lessons in tjc much happier than i thought it would be. thankyou for being with me through the good times and bad. giving me comfort, company, fun and laughter. thankyou YINYUE for being so patient with me, listening to all my complains, my sorrows, cheering me up...(and the list goes on). thankyou AMANDA for advices, for helping me with my work. and not forgetting, for bitching with me. thankyou SHIYUN for all those laughter u brought to me with your bimbotic actions and words. you may not know this, but you actually do understand me quite alot, so, thnx! thankyou JIASIAN for just being there. you dont talk much, but i know youre a SAO BAO inside! HAHA. thnx for the rides home, for the clique keychain, for your company during the very very very very VERY boring econs lessons, for your very very very very VERY fun game in your hp. =P thankyou WENYU for making me wake up and study hard for exams, for being there during long waits when the class is having h2 econs, during chem remedials, during our econs lesson(altho you always pon). thankyou CLAIRE for all those bus routes whenever im stuck, for being soooooooo HIGH during lessons, for all the funny funny convos. i'll never NEVER forget you girls man.(REALLY!)

TJCO Comm0708:
thankyou guys for making tjco such a GREAT PLACE! thankyou for all the wonderful memories. this is probably the best comm ive ever worked in. all the sweat, laughter, hardship, the conflicts... LOL. thankyou KHANGLENG for being such a great leader, for all the high EQ solutions. thankyou LIANGYU for being a kai xin guo, for the slipper you left in co room(i wore them), for the sleeping bag which you ALSO left in co room(i used them everytime im studying in co room). thankyou PATRICK for sharing so much music stuff with me, for sharing with me your thoughts and feelings, for tolerating my sudden bouts of randomness and highness. thankyou YUNYI for being so understanding. i know youre one of the he2 shi4 lao3s in our comm. thnx for knowing how to say things so nicely! and also thnx for helping me 'chop' seats in the library =P thankyou SINGYEE for doing your job so well as a welfare. this position is never the same with you around. thnx for helping me with my studies(i knw i probably made u puke like, 873645123086754litres of blood). yes, thnx for helping me 'chop' seats in the library too. thankyou HUIRU for your very very very very VERY contagious laughter(HURHURHURHUR), for being such a nice roomie who wakes(pulls) me up from bed every morning, for knocking on every single wooden thing when we step in the room(LOL). thankyou YINGLIN for being so HAPPY everytime, for your funny funny little actions, totally making me happy for nothing all the time. thankyou MINYOUNG for tolerating my suan-ings, my du2 she2, thnx for putting in the effort to prac well, for forgiving me for the hurt i inflicted on you(LOLS, sounds wrong huh?). thankyou YIHENG for allowing us to give you many many MANY different names, for all the very very very VERY cold and random and no-link comments and sorry for making you feel left out cos youre not a J2.

XIANHUI!:
haha, i dint forget you. thankyou so so so so so soooooooo much for listening to me fa1 lao2 sao1, listening to what i have to bitch about. thnx for bitching WITH me, for bao-ing liao to me, for the company through those ULTRA LONG rides home, for being so so so understanding, for allowing me to suan you everytime(LOL, ok i know ure not a willing party), for laughing and crying with me, for kai1 dao3-ing me, for the friendship, for many many more things that i just cant seem to rmb how to put it to words, but really, THANKYOU.

SERYANG!:
PARTNER-IN-CRIME! thankyou for being there for me, for comforting me, for understanding me so so so so so so sooooooo well, for bitching with me, for cheering me up, for all the laughter you gave, for the rubbish singing at teo heng. thankyou for everything. i dunno how to express how grateful i am to know you, to have you as a friend. i guess you shld know how i feel. THANKYOU! <3

HARRY:
thankyou for all that youve done for me. theres so much for me to thank you for. thnx trying to psycho me to join tj and tjco, thnx for teaching me so much about co, for accompanying me to so many concerts, for bitching with me everynight last time, for telling me so many stuff, for trusting me, for your support and comforting. thnx for the years of friendship, for lobangs to earn money, for cheering me up when im down, for all the little/big actions that made me very very touched(like the xmas present), for letting me know that there's some one who cares. THANKYOU so so much!

VANESSA:
thankyou for tolerating my nonsense, for listening to me, for the company during the long rides home, for waiting for me till i end my day, for helping me with my work, for being so patient and understanding, for allowing me to be an ass, for cheering me up when im down.

HUIYI:
thankyou for all the HIGH moments, for being so spontaneous, for making me so happy everytime, for helping me with econs, for being random with me, for tolerating my rubbish. thankyou for being huiyi. =DD

XUEQI:
thankyou for being there whenever i need you. thnx for the wonderful memories at echo, for remembering me when there's gig(i hope i wont disappoint you), for the laughters you gave, for the advices, for making me reflect on the things ive done. thankyou guan yin ma.=]

AMANDA LIM!:
my zhar boh. thankyou for the many many many MANY years of friendship. it's been 11 years yea? thnx for being with me through the ups and downs of my life, for being such a caring friend/sister, for understanding me, for loving me, for trusting me, for everything. thnx for tolerating my moodswings, my bad temper, my bad habits, my bad everything. THANKYOU<3<3<3!!

rach @ 6:10 PM

Saturday, January 03, 2009

sometimes, when the pain in your heart doesnt go away, you hope that the pain on ur skin will make it disappear.

rach @ 4:02 PM